You're young. You'd never believe me if I told you, but life does get better. You have your own room now, no more sharing with your sister and having no privacy. It's big, you have so many books, you even had your own console at some point, imagine that!
You'll meet a few heartbreakers, one person who made you cry for so long...but then you found him, you meet him two years from now, and he's the best thing that ever happened to you. You made a lot of mistakes with him, but he stuck around, he's still here. It's the light you've been needing for so long in the dark.
The people who bullied you for so many years, they're gone! Most of them have changed their lives around and I'm sure if you knew them now, it'd be like seeing completly different people. Even though you think you're fat, you're about to get bigger, so love the skin you're in, there's much worse things to be then fat! You're smart and dedicated to what you love, and I ask from you to never let that go, even when you can't find the will to get out your bed (and there will be many days like that, I promise you), never stop fighting for what you believe in and what you love.
You come across so many hills but you cross them, you cross them stronger and smarter then you were before. Even when you think you can't make it, you will. Everything you didn't think you would live through, look who's still here!
I'm eighteen now. I have the confidence to wear skirts, and dresses and shorts...everything you loved but never had the confidence to wear, we did it!! That cellulite is beautiful.
Your autism gets better, you learn to communicate and understand emotions and you get less angry. Your spelling and reading gets much better, you're not stupid! You never were stupid. No matter what they said.
Dear me, you're beautiful. And I love you, even if it felt like nobody else did.
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