Friday 26 December 2014

The kind of charecter I want to see more often in literature.



Yeah, great, a badass female who's also quite 'feminine' (and, for reasons I don't want to go into yet, highly disagree with that word, hate it), that is something I see around quite a lot, but that exists, read things like Harry Potter books, don't just think 'oh, they need a gun and to be all high and powerful to be badass', but no, that's not what I think. 

What I want to see is a person, perferably female (maybe?), who's unattractive (in the eyes of society and most people because, well, most people are assholes), overweight or at least on the chubby side and, no, I don't mean curvy, I don't mean hourglass figure, I don't mean a 'tradionally' or 'classically' hot, chubby figure, I want someone who is fat, stretch marks, freckles, marks, scars, all the imperfections of a normal person and, let's face it, how often do you see overweight, unattractive females being presented in an amazing, mindblowing way? Not often, not often at all, not from my perspective. 

I want this female to be mentally ill, maybe Depression, autism, anything, but she is powerful, tough, strong, she is a badass who goes through this amazing journey to gain comfort in herself, not through other people but using the inspiration from other people to become her own person, not even people, just things. I want her to be talentless, but she gains strength to learn, she learns and learns, she practise's, and builds herself up. I've seen that in writing before, but it's always because she's in love or something, and yes, love is a powerful thing, but so is the human mind, she can become powerful and tough and strong, in herself. 

Relying other people or needing other people doesn't make you weak. 'Unattractive' doesn't exist, it's a word made up for people to use when stating their preferences, but someone in the world will always find you beautiful, even if you haven't met them yet, that's what I mean when I say it doesn't exist. There's nothing wrong with calling yourself fat if you know you are. I'm overweight, I'm not just speaking this out of my ass, if you change the definition of a word to suit yourself, it won't hurt you anymore, say "I'm fat" and say it proudly. Stretch marks, freckles, marks and scars, all the things that are imperfect (not that I believe perfect is a thing, either), are the things that make you different. If everyone had perfect skin, the same personality, the same (more or less) facial features, skin colour, sexual preference...we'd just be emotional robots, it's boring, it's dull.

Anyway, glad to get my thoughts out.