Summaries of Books I Read in May!

Some people may consider a May wrap-up posted in the early days of June a little late, but better late than never. Funnily enough I already had this pre-written (mini reviewing them a little bit as I slugged along) but I accidentally deleted the entire thing. Yup. This is a common occurrence in my college, too., even with the added detail of saving them on back-up USB's. Shit just happens to me. 

Anywho, here is my late but still beefy (can vegetarians say beefy?) wrap-up. 

The Unlikely Pilgrimage of Harold Fry by Rachel Joyce. 

Pretty much exactly what you would expect from a book with Harold and Pilgrimage in the title, this is about an old man trekking across the whole of the UK to get to his lost friend from years ago, Queenie. She had sent him a letter to explain that she was dying of cancer, and like a normal person he did aim for a post box to reply...and ended up never stopping. He had this child philosophy that if he could walk across the whole of the UK to get to Queenie before her death, she would survive cancer. 

It's a very heart-warming story, got a little in depth about the way we live our life and how other people live theirs. Most importantly, it focused on how we are all going through something difficult and we are all fighting a battle - we're just all fighting different ones. I thought it was beautifully written. Could have done with a few pages being cut off, but the writing style was great, it was funny and sad and philosophical (in an entertaining, un-boring way). If you've been considering it, do check it out. 

The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini. 

If by chance you have no idea what this book is about (where do you live, on the island that all these vegans keep getting sent to?), then I am here to tell you. Amir is a little boy, I think 12. He is the son of a rich man, and this rich man is best friends with a poor man who is on the side of Muslims that are looked down upon for who they are. He has a poor son. I forgot their names, if you couldn't tell. A month is a long enough time period for all of that to blur, despite it being a really memorable and heart-warming book that my broken black hole still hasn't recovered from. Amir and The Poor Son are best best best friends. The Poor Son will do anything for Amir - not that Amir can say the same back. One day, The Poor Son goes through something dreadful (that Amir had the power to stop) around about the same time the Talibans come to Afghanistan. It all goes shit-hit-the-fan after that. 

I expected this book to be very deeply informative, have a lot of background history and unnecessary descriptions - it didn't. The writing style was great. It focused on something incredibly important. Not that I was every against helping refugees, but this book would have made me change my mind if I was. It was simply awesome.

The Many Worlds of Albie Bright by Christopher Edge

Oh, no! The good reading month does not end there. While in a supermarket the other day, I spotted this very beautiful book (of which you can read my short little review on here) for pretty cheap. It's about a little boy called Albie, who has scientists for parents. One day, his mother dies of cancer and Albie aspires to try his best to find her through the magic of parallel world teleportation. It's funny, cute, and a little sad in some parts. Do go read it, you won't regret it. (the author himself read by review and commented about it on Twitter, as a by the way, still screaming)

The Lie Tree by Frances Hardinge 

Again, if you want something a little bit more in depth, I also did a review of this book here - see, mum, I've been somewhat productive outside of college. 

This is about a girl called Frances who is a feminist superhero, really. Little did I know that this is historical-fiction (and I'm glad I didn't know, because there's a very small chance I would have picked it up otherwise). It was based around the death/murder of Frances' father (a natural scientist). Nobody will believe anything she says because A) she is a child and B) she is a female child. She goes into the course of action by herself. She also discovers that her father has been hiding secrets of his own. 

I adored the shit out of this book. I thought it was odd, well woven together, fantastic character development and depth, amazing writing style. It was just a really good book, and a book I definitely did not regret. 

Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi

I think everyone knows about what this book is about. It's a YA book of a girl who is locked away because she can kill people with her touch. It's basically a romance story, very little dystopian, but it has so many YA traits that I felt really annoyed with it. The writing style was really really good and I finished it in two days with ease, but the actual content was hit and miss. I still don't know what I feel about it and whether or not I will continue with the series, but it's leaning more on the probably not side for me. I am curious about why everyone loves Warner, though. 

The Vegetarian by Han Kang. 

I still need to write a review on this but guess who keeps forgetting. It was a very weird weird book, but it was absolutely incredibly and quickly one of my favourite reads of the year - maybe even ever. It follows a girl who's name I have already forgotten, married to a bit of a dick. She's very, very normal. Painstakingly normal. One day, she has an odd dream and turns vegetarian but this bizarre event doesn't stop there - she falls down the rabbit hole of mental illness, told in an honest and beautiful way. If you haven't, please do consider reading this. It was gold. 

Room by Emma Donoghue. 

Everyone got to this little gem before me, regretfully so! This is the tale of a woman, "ma" (and in the movie, she was named Joy), who was stolen at the age of 19 and kept captive by Old Nick and raped - she gave birth to a baby boy named Jack, who is the narrator of the story. It's rare that I read books narrated by children, so I found that prospect interesting in itself. It was funny in parts, really sad in other parts. Gloriously entertaining, I finished this quickly. I want to re-read it and I only just put it down. 

Liesl and Po by Lauren Oliver

This follows a little girl named Liesl who was trapped in an attic by her vicious stepmother after the death of her father. One day, a mysterious ghost appears named Po and neither one of them know why. It soon becomes clear that mystery and magic lies underneath everything they know, and they're determined to find it out together. After finding out why Lauren wrote the book (and if you want to know, do ask in the comments, but I would prefer not to know these details beforehand so I won't do so to anyone else), I found this story even more beautiful and heartbreaking. I gave this a 5/5 and highly recommend it (even though it does have flaws, like every other book out there).

Thank you ever so much for reading, what did you read this month? I would love to know. Check back in with you soon. Probably. 

The Ruler of Books Tag!

Finally, a book tag I'm doing that is actually even in the same year as it was created (and it was created by Ariel Bissett).

If you were the Ruler of Books…

1) What book would you make everyone read?

I recently read "The Kite Runner" by Khaled Hosseini - and although mine, like April's, response to this question would vary month to month if I was to answer this question today (which I am...obviously), this would be my answer. I think it would make every racist little shit change their mind about accepting refugees into your country, the opinion on Afghanistan and Muslims in general and also shares an awful lot of wisdom about undying loyalty and friendship (and how being a coward is a real shitty character trait). 

2) What would you abolish in book construction?

I completely understand the point in them, I understand that they'd help highten book sales somewhat and I like how it encourages people to read the book just because the cover is one of their favourite movies (or just a movie they really liked) - and that's the movie covers, or the stickers you can't remove that say "Now a major motion picture", I'm not a person (I consider, anyway) who's particularly vain about their books - I break the spine, I fold the pages, but something about these just bother me immensely. In the same way people on covers bothers me, I suppose. 

3) What author would you commission to write you any book?

J.K.Rowing - I want her to write me a beautiful little story about a group of witches who are all female in a male-dominated, modern world but not in an alternative universe like the Harry Potter world was - hiding among society, a lot like AHS: Coven but without the horror aspect. I think it would be wonderful. 

4) What book would you demote to the library basement to make room for new books?

"It's Kind of a Funny Story" by Ned sofwggvarsh. I don't like the sexism. I didn't like the satire. I though the plot was boring. I know it kind of...sucks to say this about someone who killed themselves, and I'm really sorry (and maybe that's why all the people who didn't like this book are hiding) but if you want this book, you'll have to really want it to get it because no. Just no. 

5.  What cover artist would you commission to make a mural?

JIMKAYJIMKAYJIMKAY. 

6.  What characters face would you put on a coin?

I love so many characters but maybe Luna from the first three "Gone" books by Michael Grant, I adore her for being a badass and knowing her own worth. She wasn't a memorable character to a lot of people, but she's the one who I think of first. 

7.  What book would you award the “Ruler of Books” 2016 Prize to?

I can't really say Kite Runner again, and I don't think I've read any books this year that were published this year (I tend to read used books from charity shops).  Probably Spiderwick - or The Long Earth. I don't knooooow. 

Thank you for reading! if you want to do this book tag, I'll have the clean copy underneath this sentence so you can have a try :)

If you were the Ruler of Books…
1/ What book would you make everyone read?
2/ What would you abolish in book construction?
3/ What author would you commission to write you any book?
4/ What book would you demote to the library basement to make room for new books?
5/ What cover artist would you commission to make a mural?
6/ What characters face would you put on a coin?
7/ What book would you award the “Ruler of Books” 2016 Prize to?

Books I Brought With Me To England!

Hey!

If you didn't know, I'm currently in England to visit my grandparents' and my father (hopefully not his girlfriend, too) and I packed very last minute so I'm sort of regretting the books I brought with me. Not too much, though, because they are books I really want to get read. I might only be here for a week, or a week and a half, I just wanted a wide variety of choice rather then being like "You're going to get all these read!". I'm rambling, let me just show you what books I got: 

"Horrorstor" by Grady Hendrix. 

A parody on the famous furniture store, Ikea, that is basically about strange happenings at night when the store has been shut down. Employees have been sent to stay overnight to investigate what has been going on, and they're met with a nasty surprise. 

One of my birthday presents from Austin that I once saw on a YouTube video and thought it looked kind of interesting, so I thought "hey, why not give it a shot!". I can't say I'm really that exited to read it, purely because I've heard a lot of things behind said on it that the writing just isn't that great, but still. I did bring it with me just because I wanted to get through it more then actual want to read it. It seems more like a decoration book then anything,  but it might pleasantly surprise me, who knows. 

"The Alchemyst" by Michael Scott. 

I think everyone and their dog knows what this is about, but I don't. I think it's about twins in a fantasy realm? I don't really know...I got this as a birthday present from my mother and sister, which is weird because they never get me books! Especially books that have been on my Amazon wishlist for quite some time. 

"Alice in Zombieland" by Gene Showalter. 

I've heard so many negatives thinks about this, so this on top of it being a YA dystopia romance makes me hesitant to read it, but the trilogy is based from one of my favourite books and even if it has little resemblance, I can at least try to like it because of that. This book is also a useful contribution towards something I am working on for later this year, stick around for that!

"Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets" by J.K.Rowling. 

"Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban" by J.K.Rowling. 

I should hope I don't need to say what these are, but these are for my Harry Potter Read-A-Thon books, that's more of a re-read at this point seeing as I finished the first one like a week ago and haven't even made a move yet on starting the second one. Oops?

"Fangirl" by Rainbow Rowell. 

A twin called Cathy (have to say, not a fan of Rowell's choice of names) decides she doesn't want to be tied up to her sister anymore when she joins university and wants to be a free bird, and meets someone called Levi. Everyone else loves him, but they're also the same people who love Will Herondale, so we'll see if I like him too. 

"Hens Reunited" by Lucy Diamond. 

A book I am currently reading about three women whos lives have fallen apart, and they reunite in their unique 'failures' as they try to rebuild what they have left. It's quite different from Lucy's (AKA, Sue's) usually writing structure, as are all her books I'm noticing so far - I love this book more then the others, but at the same time I'm disappointed in it. Probably for a lot of reasons - it might not have been the right time to read a book like this, or it was something I have been anticipating for so long that I made it into something more then it would ever live up to, I don't know. I may have to re-read in the future to really make my mind up about it. 

So, I might be buying some more books in the future while I am here as I realize I did not bring the most varied of choices as I would like, but it'll do, thank you ever so much for reading and I'll see you all next time! 

- Loz x

TFW: Books I Love That Everyone Else Hates

Welcome to another Top Five Wednesday! Fun fact, I was having difficulty thinking up things to write about for top five and turns out, Goodreads has a whole group dedicated to this. I knew it was quite a popular thing in the booktube community, but I didn't know it was by that much. 

Anyway, the one that stood out to be the most (mostly because there's so many options to choose from) was the top five books I really liked or loved that everyone else didn't like so much or straight up hated. Let's get started!

(in no particular order)

One. 

It's not a book but a 'series'/trilogy that a lot lot LOT of people really didn't like, and even though I read this when I was about sixteen years old, my memory can't pick up anything I would dislike if I had read it freshly today and that is "The Maze Runner"/"The Scorch Trials"/"The Death Cure" and of course "Kill Order" (even though that is the prequel and technically not part of the trilogy, but I count it because it includes important information on how the Flare virus had come about). It was fast paced, action-packed, little romance, great characters - and the women were portrayed as strong people, even if they didn't show Lana (I think was her name) very much. It was a great series/trilogy from what I can remember, and I wish everyone felt the same way about it as I did. 

Two. 

This wasn't really a hated or strongly disliked book, but the mutual rating among most people for this novel was three stars, and I think I gave it four (the highest rating I could give it, five is reserved for books that really did something for me) , and that is "The Twins" by Saskia Sarginson. This book is about two twins, obviously, one who has anorexia and the other is a successful business woman.  They grew up in the woods with their mother who didn't believe in discipline, but one day something awful happens that they still can't shake of and they want to go back to the past to try and make peace within themselves and to help one of the twins with anorexia. It's kind of slow in parts, but please don't let that put you off!

Three. 

Another series I'm going to go with here. I'm finding more and more people who are a fan of this series by the day who were ashamed of it because of the 'controlling boyfriend' aspect throughout it but I think well, he's a vampire, so the rules are going to be different for him although I can completely see why a teenager would read it and think that was acceptable behaviour for a human boyfriend (it isn't). You've probably already guessed what that series is, and that is indeed the "Twilight" series by Stephanie Meyer. I read them as a kid, loved them. Watched the movies, loved them. They have great memories in them with some old friends I don't talk to anymore. It was just a really good series. 

Four. 

This one only counts for the first book, as the other two books in the series I did not enjoy very well - actually, I didn't even bother trying to get through the last book, I got halfway and DNF'd, but the first book was entertaining and I liked it, I liked it a lot, and that is "Divergent" by Veronica Roth. I found Tris to be the kind of person who would make the decisions I would make in her situation (apart from her acknowledging the people who bully her are in the next room but she walked in their in a towel anyway, now that was stupid, she should have just waited). A lot of teenagers don't make smart decisions. Not a huge fan of Roth's writing style, but I did really enjoy this book at least - I think Veronica Roth is more suited to standalones then she is to series and trilogys, if I'm being honest here.

Five. 

I guess I'm going to pick "My Sister's Keeper" by Jodi Picoult for this, even though I didn't really love it, I just like it a lot more then most people seem to do (and I can completely understand why, honestly). I don't know, I just really like Anna, I think she's a really cool character.

Thank you ever so much for reading, I hope you enjoyed. what are your top five books? See you tomorrow, Loz x 

Top Five Wednesday: Books I've Read This Year

Hello!

So, welcome to my first Top Five Wednesday (I think, it would be embarrassing if it's not...). I'm just going to be telling you my favourite books that I have read this year in no particular order, and believe me, it was hard to pick out just five. Anyway, hope you enjoy!

One. 

"A Monster Calls" by Patrick Ness. 

This might even be the number one favourite book of the entire year. It was emotional, beautiful writing style, beautiful message. It was gorgeous. The only thing I didn't like was the book cover, I think I prefer the other one. 

Two. 

"Over you" by Lucy Diamond. 

This was the first romance novel I have read that was written for adults, and I think that had a huge influence on my feelings towards it. But, Lucy Diamond's writing style has a way of sucking you in. The plot is okay, the characters are amazing. I really like this book. 

Three. 

"The Miniaturist" by Jessie Burton. 

It's been a while since I've read it and I didn't like it at first. It was a lot of stuff thrown in that I didn't quite understand, like why the characters and the setting was more modern for a book written in the 1800's, and it also wasn't what I expected it to be, I expected a lot more focus on the miniaturist and not the events in the house but the events in the house is what the story is about. Because I was so focused on knowing the story on the miniaturist, the ending was a massive let down and a plot-twist rolled into one. Now that I've had time to think about it, it sticks out in my head and I'm probably going to re-read in sometime in the future. I liked it a lot.

Four. 

"The Twins" by Saskia Sarginson. 

This book was slow at parts but overall, I really loved it. It was dark, it had some romance elements that didn't overtake the entire thing, it was very enchanted and "hippy" throughout the novel - not to say that it didn't have flaws, it was quite flawed, but still a wonderful read that is sticking to me and I can't wait till I find Saska's other work. 

Five.

"Carrie" by Stephen King. 

Throughout my childhood and even now, my nickname is often "Carrie" and I absolutely adored all three movies before I even knew it was a book. I expected the book to disappoint me, but it didn't. It was slow, and wasn't his best work, but overall I was pretty pleased with it. 

Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed this! What are your favourite books so far this year? 

- Loz x

My Amazon Book Wish-List Series

So today I thought I would share five books from my Amazon Wish-list, and right not there will only be eight posts because I have forty books on my list, but as more will be added, when it gets to ten new ones, I can make a whole new Amazon post. Also, this gives me even more posts I can make for when I buy a few and I can tell you the books I bought from my wish-list. I hope that makes sense, I feel rather frazzled this morning. They'll probably be posted every Friday, because on our schedule, today is a free day to post what I want. If Austin picks something he wants to post, it'll be alongside whatever he wants to post on Friday, too.

This is also the Amazon wish-list where some are the first book of a series I want to try, or stand alone's. I'm going to do a seperete series on here for the one's that complete series I already have, which is only going to be four posts long, because I have twenty books on there. Right now, this is the first post, but every post I'm pre-writing because I can't always get onto a computer so on the rare times I can, I write as much as I can and publish them on a different day. Tempting just to post them all on one day though, sometimes.

Also, bare in mind, I'm not a huge "This book just came out, I must read it right away!" type of person, I just hear a book from my friends, or get recommended one on Goodreads, or something and if I like it I will check it out and that's kinda how my Wish-Lists develop, or if I want a specific book cover for a book I already own. 

 

This was just going to be a small introduction at the start of my first post, but it turned out to be long enough to be a post all on it's own, so hello! The first post for this new series will follow shortly after this is published whenever. Probably later on today. 

(also, in the UK today, it was the solar eclipse this morning and my friend did a cool trick using two paper plates so we could see the shadow of the moon, seeing as we couldn't see the sun itself, awesome right?)

The Ultimate Book Tag!

I got this tag from a blog called books with bite, where the original creator of this tag is credited if you want to check them out. Anyway, I was in search for an Easter book tag for when Easter comes around and although I don't much care for that holiday, I like to do seasonal things just for fun and when that didn't happen, I stumbled across this one! For Easter, I think I'm just going to make up a book tag, but if you have an Easter book tag that you know of, please do share it with me, and if you've done this book tag or similar book tags, link your blog!

Do you get sick while reading in the car? 

Yes, and I hate it! Most of my family do not live in walking distance, nor is the school I go to everyday, so as much as I would love to read in the car and how much reading I could get done that way, I can't because I will probably throw up.

With author's writing style is completely unique to you and why?

Well, I think every writing style is different in it's own way but...I don't really know, one that stands out the most for me in my small book collection is James Dashner (author of The Maze Runner series), just because it's the kind of writing where you can't peel your eyes away from the page, you just become trapped inside his writing right until the book is finished, which I feel like is a rare quality to find in writers, and part of the reason as to why The Maze Runner series is one of my top five favorite series.

Harry Potter series or the Twilight saga? Give 3 points to defend your answer. 

Harry Potter, no question!

1. I grew up with Harry Potter, so I feel a close connection to the characters and to the writer.

2. The amazing plot and amazing character development.

3. The message of Hermione Granger - you can have beauty, brains and still be a bad-ass, too. You can have it all!

Do you carry a book bag? If so, what's in it (besides books...)?

I don't really know what a "book bag" is, is that an American term that I'm not familiar with? I do have a schoolbag by Anna Smith though (it's pop art designed!), with the current book I'm reading called The Miniaturist by Jessie Burton, my journal, my Gruffalo pencil case (filled with colored pens, black pens, highlighters, an eraser, and my beloved pencils), my school/reading book, The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde, my purse covered in flamingo's and it's adorable, my two school diaries, the latest issue of National Geographic (March 2015), and my English book!

Do you smell your books? 

A little bit too much.  I find myself, on more then once occasion, just flipping the pages as I read it so the smell of freshly bought paperback drifts upwards. 

Books with or without little illustrations? 

I love both, but I love my imagination more. I like them at the start of chapters, but that's really where I like to keep it. Maybe little illustrations for numbers instead of the numbered pages, things like that, but nothing that really gives much away. 

What book did you love while reading but later discovered it wasn't quality writing? (example - loving the Twilight series, then reading the HP series, and then thinking Twilight was a little bit of a joke). 

I don't know what the series was called, but it was by Dan Wells, the first book was I am not a serial killer and although I really love the memory of how much I loved that series back when I was sixteen before I was active on Goodreads, blogged and so this was before I took anything in about the book. It was just the little things in that book that I thought was terrible, such as the "every girl is a sex object" theme, but of course he's a serial killer, so maybe that makes sense, but I realize not just this theme but his repetitive writing, his not-fully-formed plots, etc, it all summed together in my head for me that although I used to love it, it's a horrible series to me now. 

Do you have any stories involving books from your childhood? Please share!

Like the previous writer before me has stated, I don't have a childhood story that I can remember, but I do have a romantic one (and one that, perhaps, you should look away and skip to the next question if you don't like people writing in books...). This was a while ago, me and my boyfriend have been together two years now and we're long distance (he's in USA, I'm in the UK), so he sent me a book, the first book in the Lemony Snicket series and he had written in the opening page of the book a very sweet letter and don't worry, it was written in pencil! 

 What is the thinnest book on your shelves? 

Probably Dustbin Baby by Jacqueline Wilson. 

Do you write as well as read? Do you see yourself in the future as being an author? 

Yes and no. I do enjoy writing but I've never been able to complete so much as a short story, despite having a whole world setup in my head for a future book since I was very young, maybe about eight, and I had drawn maps for it, developed the main characters, and thought of so many different plots that could take place in this world. As much as I would love to be a professional writer, I don't think I'd be able to handle the pressure and having just one job that involves not leaving my home, I would hate too much. Although if I could travel while I could write and having the money I make from being an author be enough to support me and my future dogs, then yes, it's something I would like to do. Sorry, I'm sure that answer could have been shorter!

When did you get into reading? 

Sorry for the mini-violin moment, but this is honestly how it happened. During primary school (so when I was 7/8), I was quite badly bullied and always have been mostly because of the autism, and maybe this next thing is also because of the autism, but I found great comfort in hiding in the library and just reading and reading until lessons came back on. I also wasn't in the best situation at home, so my books were a great escape for me, and they have been ever since. 

What is your favorite classic book?

Hmm...I haven't read many classics, but probably The picture of Dorian Gray which I was first introduced to two years ago, Perfume which I had a book review up on last year but unfortunately I re-read it, decided it was crap and deleted them all, but I did really like that one too, or Black Beauty, even though that was ridiculously sad.

In school, was your best subject Language Arts/English?

Do they really call it Language Arts in other places? That's wicked! But anyway, yes it was. Funny story, I used to read the House of Night series under the desks while everyone else was on their phones, and the teacher didn't tell me to put it away and focus on the lesson, he would pretend he never saw it and let me do it anyway. But, yes, it was...sixth form English, not so much. 

If you were given a book as a present that you had read before and hated, what would you do? 

I would say thank you, and then I'd keep the book until I found someone who would like it, or I would give it away to a charity. 

What is a lesser known series that you know of that is similar to Harry Potter and The Hunger Games? 

Well, it used to be The Maze Runner series, but that got very popular very quickly, so I don't have an answer for this one. 

What is a bad habit you do (besides rambling) when filming? 

Probably not looking at the camera when I am talking, not positioning the camera in a flattening area, and not speaking loud enough for the viewers to be able to hear me but it's something  I am working on. 

What is your favorite word?

I HAVE SO MANY! I love 'make', 'whatnot', 'look like' when spoken together, actually most words with a K in it!

Are you a nerd, dork or dweeb? Or all of the above? 

Is there really that much of a difference?

Vampires of fairies? Why? 

Neither, they're usually portrayed in a really boring and dull way. With the exception of Dracula. 

Shapeshifters or angels? Why?

I like both, but probably angels. They're usually shown to be devils in disguise, though, and I wish people would create an original angel somewhere. 

Zombies or vampires? Why?

ZOMBIES! My dad has been obsessed with zombies ever since...well, before I can remember, and I guess being around it so much influenced me more then I thought. Plus, vampires suck. 

Love Triangle or Forbidden Love? 

I hate both. I just don't like romance in books, I feel like too much romance happens in real life and I would much rather read about something that won't, and probably never will, happen then something that happens every single day. 

AND FINALLY: full on romance books or action packed books with a few love scenes thrown in? 

Again, neither, but I much prefer the action packed books with a few love scenes thrown in...although I would prefer no love scenes at all. 

I hope you enjoyed this ridiculously long book tag, so if you want to do this too, please do and please share the link to me so I can see it, thank you!

The kind of charecter I want to see more often in literature.

Yeah, great, a badass female who's also quite 'feminine' (and, for reasons I don't want to go into yet, highly disagree with that word, hate it), that is something I see around quite a lot, but that exists, read things like Harry Potter books, don't just think 'oh, they need a gun and to be all high and powerful to be badass', but no, that's not what I think. 

What I want to see is a person, perferably female (maybe?), who's unattractive (in the eyes of society and most people because, well, most people are assholes), overweight or at least on the chubby side and, no, I don't mean curvy, I don't mean hourglass figure, I don't mean a 'tradionally' or 'classically' hot, chubby figure, I want someone who is fat, stretch marks, freckles, marks, scars, all the imperfections of a normal person and, let's face it, how often do you see overweight, unattractive females being presented in an amazing, mindblowing way? Not often, not often at all, not from my perspective. 

I want this female to be mentally ill, maybe Depression, autism, anything, but she is powerful, tough, strong, she is a badass who goes through this amazing journey to gain comfort in herself, not through other people but using the inspiration from other people to become her own person, not even people, just things. I want her to be talentless, but she gains strength to learn, she learns and learns, she practise's, and builds herself up. I've seen that in writing before, but it's always because she's in love or something, and yes, love is a powerful thing, but so is the human mind, she can become powerful and tough and strong, in herself. 

Relying other people or needing other people doesn't make you weak. 'Unattractive' doesn't exist, it's a word made up for people to use when stating their preferences, but someone in the world will always find you beautiful, even if you haven't met them yet, that's what I mean when I say it doesn't exist. There's nothing wrong with calling yourself fat if you know you are. I'm overweight, I'm not just speaking this out of my ass, if you change the definition of a word to suit yourself, it won't hurt you anymore, say "I'm fat" and say it proudly. Stretch marks, freckles, marks and scars, all the things that are imperfect (not that I believe perfect is a thing, either), are the things that make you different. If everyone had perfect skin, the same personality, the same (more or less) facial features, skin colour, sexual preference...we'd just be emotional robots, it's boring, it's dull.

Anyway, glad to get my thoughts out.